Yes, he’s just a kid. But duuude, he says it all man. Ohohohohoho! I can’t stop laughing.Tell that to my Mommy will you?!

Gosh. Tell me bout kids.

My head is so ridiculously painful right now, such that I’m constantly frowning, either thinking that would ease the pain or it’s just irritating me that’s why.

Life’s been a lil dramatic lately.

Firstly, I was kinda pissed off with myself because I did not manage to keep to a promise I had made before. I have been trying very hard not to break that promise. But, urgh, blame myself for being such a weakling. I really really hate the fact that in certain situations, I just do not know how to firmly keep to my stand. I frequently find myself just giving in and immediately regret doing so, but yet, I’ll be too afraid to make a sound.

Second thing is the one that bothered me the most. Words said can never be taken back. The pain you’ve caused me to feel can also never be erased just by an apology from you. If it was anybody else who believed those shits and think that way of me, I won’t feel a thing and I won’t blame them cuz it just shows tt they do not know me. But look, those words came from you, someone whom I’ve known for 3 years and for more than half the time, regarded as a really close pal, talking crap, confiding all the hidden shits in us and once, fell in love with each other. Someone whom I thought knew me enough. So all these ends up to be just a waste of time uh. I’ve repeated umpteenth times,

I Am So Disappointed .

You say it’s a pity to end up like this. Well, if you’re reading this, sorry, I can’t forgive you.

There are still so much more things going through my mind but I shall spare any unlucky bored souls who’re reading these crap from my little sorrows. My stupid blog is so stupid and boring I don’t think anyone would be interested to read anyway. And maybe, it’s best that I keep things to myself cuz I just can’t seem to really trust anybody in my life right now. Sorry, but yeah. :/

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HELLO! You can start reading from here!

SO, met up w dearest bitches that night, dinner and crapping at tampines. Times spent w them always feel good, no matter what.

Then yesterday was spent job-hunting with long-lost BFF, JJCWJ!! Been SO long I tell you, his voice so deep already sey now. Maturing uh?! HAHA. Freaking went for FOUR interviews. More confident one would be the one at Gelare, followed by Sushi Tei. I’m hoping to get a job soon. I wanna see MONEY. $_$

Impromptu visit to boong’s at around 10pm and finally, complete BFFs!

Yay! So now that the bbfs have reunited, we gotta have uhh, BOOMZ gatherings often man! Lol.

Oh and and as u can see, the photos are ripped off boong’s blog so yeah, credits to wenqirocks.bs . Tho I guess she definitely wouldn’t mind me ripping. I’ve been doing that for YEARS. LOL.

Yeah so, that’s about it. Bye kiddos.

I stayed home the whole of today! Wtf. Anyways I’ve been thinking a lot, fretting a lot, arguing a lot, crying a lot but now I’ve thought it through and I’m all right already. There’s just gonna be some changes in my life and hopefully I’ll be able to adapt no matter how unwilling and uncertained I might be. Whatever will be, will be. To think of it, kinda useless to think so much also right?! Hmmm, I think I’m making some sense!

And and this two bands are really helpful today. They kept me companied throughout my boring today and their music really perks me up! Love them.

They are the ones featured in my current playlist. Press the video option cuz I think the videos’re great. Dope. Totally abso-fucking-lutely dopeshit man. I’m like addicted to their songs right now I can’t stop listening. Haha.

Anyway, my happy and hyper mood’s back for now I guess. So, great! Imma go bathe now, good night peeps!

Mdm Chan spoke to me when we returned to school on friday and I guess I really got to think about the choices I’ll have to face soon.

#1. Retain

#2. Poly

If I choose to retain, then should I consider changing my subject combi or stick to the current one?

I’m pretty sure I’ll be having so much to fret about SOON and I can’t help feeling a lil scared just thinking bout it. *sigh*

If you’re really watching over me, I hope you would help me make the right choices. I miss the time I can always just run to you whenever I encounter any problem. I always appear to be open about your disappearance in my life, but deep down I may not have already gotten over that harsh fact of losing you. I miss you lah papa! :’(

Emo stuffs aside, I went to the zoo yesterday! Yes, the ZOO! It’s so comical how I keep hesitating whether to go or not. You see, I woke up suddenly at 3+AM and suddenly remembered the zoo outing so I went to set my alarm. Then when the alarm went off at 6+AM, I was super unwilling to wake up so I keep disturbing my mother, asking her whether I should go.

SO this is how our conversation went:

Mommy: “Go lah, compulsory is it?”

Me: “No lah, ya lah, compulsory. Aiyah nvm lah, dont want go.”

Mommy: “Ok lah, don’t go lah, don’t go lah, so early!”

Me: “Huh…. nvm lah, I go lah.”

Ok VERY lame. But anywhos, I went to the zoo! It was SO tiring! Like a good exercise only seh! But it was also quite fun! Somehow, got reminded that humans are not the only livngs on earth! LOL.

Here’s two pictures of me and my hanistar! Took this when we went teoheng on the last day of my exam!

By the way, this is to you. Yes, I know you know who you are. YOU. We all know that it’s so CLICHE of YOU to tell tales about me so stop wasting your efforts trying to flame me all right?! Nnb.

I AM FEELING A LIL CRANKY TODAY. I AM GOING TO GO OUT. BYE!

Life’s so full of ups and downs and even though the downs always make me wish for you to be by my side immediately, I must learn to control. Resisting all impulsiveness and imputing more indepedence in me.

Thinking back, I really was stronger before. I despise myself now. Perhaps you should just shoot me dead when you see me.

damn geraldine damn geraldine damn geraldine lye hui ting. _|_